Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Nothing Gold Can Stay

So today was a hectic day at work. We're changing computer systems. We've outgrown the capabilities of our current system and must change in order to grow. The verdict of the uses of the system: change is bad!

I understand, change takes time to adjust to. I'm the first person to admit that change can be hard. Very hard. My first day of college was my first realization that I was not a fan of change. I had a really hard time adjusting. I cried, wanted to get back together with my high school boyfriend, struggled to fit in, struggled to figure out what I wanted to do with the rest of my life, all while under a lot of pressure to succeed. Nothing gold can stay.  And in the end, I'm happy for every step I took and how life has turned out so far. 

Letting go of the negative thoughts and just accepting life as it comes is a lot easier to say than to actually do in real life. It's the same as with my new way of eating and seeing myself. I want to not only eat food for the better, but I want to change the way I look at myself.

What a great segway to Caitlin's book! Which is out today!
You can find Operation Beautiful on bookshelves today! I pre-ordered a copy and I'm so excited to get it soon! She also has a great way of connecting with bloggers by talking about your healthy weight or way you want to change the way you see yourself, of even love the way you see yourself now!

Change is my biggest fear but yet also what I want so bad in my life. It's hard to adjust to thinking about food differently, thinking about my body differently, and thinking about my goals differently. It's not all about losing weight, but about eating things that make me feel good and finding a balance in the good and the sweets that I love oh so dearly!

Today made me realize, more than ever, that I just need to accept change as a part of life and rather than stress over it and go into breakdown mode, I just need to keep moving forward.

My goal all day today was to not let the stress get to me and to not let other people's negative attitudes affect me. It did yesterday and I couldn't move all night. Today I stayed positive, I hoped to encourage others with my positive attitude and no matter what happened, I kept on thinking happy thoughts!

When I came home, I ran a little over a mile. Not the 1.75 miles I was supposed to do. Honestly, I just feel exhausted. My new zen and positive attitude takes a lot out of me at times, trying to fight off the negative. But I still got out and did something which I was pretty happy about!

I also made this....
 We made Jenna's recipe and it was spicey deliciousness in a bowl. I'm glad I moved past my bump on a log stage to make it :)

So I'm very happy about the changes that happened in my life today! I can't wait to see what happens next.

Check out Katie's blog! I'm a guest blogger on it today!!


  1. Holy cow, that looks delicious! And good for you for staying positive. I know it's not always easy, but hang in there :)